solstice

Jan
17
Aluminum & Ash

Aluminum & Ash

Odious here, calling out from between the micro blinds. This is the first post for the serial I’m dropping, and I don’t know if it’s Covid or some other vampiric suck on my energy, but I’ve been dragging through every sentence.
17 min read
Nov
20
Vast Active Living Intelligence System

Vast Active Living Intelligence System

“I can take the form of anyone, anywhere, and at any time.”
9 min read
Oct
30
tv fathers

tv fathers

Whole lifetimes passed of barely being there, I was a flimsy ghost determined by the things around me, until now this flash of anamnesis. Not remembering but forgetting a little less how we’d always been together…our graves side by side on several continents.
7 min read
Oct
09
present tense (synopsis)

present tense (synopsis)

The parts of our being that are pre and post language—they’ve been activated and lit-up, even if the rest of our so-called conscious minds can’t grasp it. It’s like an opening in your body that lets in extra air, getting you a little high and freaked out from the oxygen.
11 min read
Sep
07
ttys

ttys

I left BK the day before Ida. I'm heading west with an old acquaintance who is vaccinated but far from well…
6 min read
Aug
11
benny & da hex

benny & da hex

Hi, it's Odious. This is how i got the (ghost) band together
7 min read
Jul
26
2008

2008

I could see the branch of the Callery Pear tree that stretched across the fire escape, a presence that meant nothing to me during the day, but late at night its newly bloomed glowing white flowers seemed to turn into demonic faces stretched in laughter. cw: suicide ideation
8 min read
Jul
19
sync don't swim

sync don't swim

There’s not enough to drink that will make me forget what’s happening, it’s only when I’m with Odious that I feel calm, because I’m so focused on the unique feel of everything that happens in their presence that I forget to obsess about my own thoughts for a while.
7 min read
Jul
11
DOOM

DOOM

At the end of 2020 Odious and I were in a holding pattern. Unusual, and possibly extraordinary things had happened, but there was no way to know what, if anything, any of it meant...
8 min read
Jun
21
Rip Van Winkle

Rip Van Winkle

It was an ambivalent energy that was fucking with me—a darkness that didn’t fit into language. It’s that which was there before and that which will be there after we're finished with words.
8 min read