subliminal messages

Oct
22
Deeper

Deeper

I could almost be lulled into believing nothing had changed, but the formidable reality of Heir Max 98 hung between us, a dark shape that was blurred around the edges like a smudge or a distortion in the fabric of space and time.
4 min read
Oct
09
present tense (synopsis)

present tense (synopsis)

The parts of our being that are pre and post language—they’ve been activated and lit-up, even if the rest of our so-called conscious minds can’t grasp it. It’s like an opening in your body that lets in extra air, getting you a little high and freaked out from the oxygen.
11 min read
Sep
21
phone home

phone home

I told Jesse James I wanted to live within the cathedral of the sunset, beneath which all people are free. "Yeah, yeah, yeah,” he said in his soft, feminine voice. The evening light made the ancient teardrop tattoo under the corner of his left eye look like smeared eyeliner.
7 min read
Sep
15
folk punk

folk punk

Heir Max 98: Hi Swim. Let me start by saying that I agree with you. Swim Palmer: Hi Swim Palmer: Agree with what? Heir Max 98: That the mixtape is the highest form of art.
5 min read
Sep
07
ttys

ttys

I left BK the day before Ida. I'm heading west with an old acquaintance who is vaccinated but far from well…
6 min read
Aug
28
frankenstein98

frankenstein98

Nothing is inherently good or bad, 98 insists. There is only the perception and misperception of individual events—and only from the vantage point of an all-seeing God could anyone know which was which. “Hear that?” Swim asked with a snort. “98 believes in God, just like you!”
8 min read
Aug
11
benny & da hex

benny & da hex

Hi, it's Odious. This is how i got the (ghost) band together
7 min read
Jul
26
2008

2008

I could see the branch of the Callery Pear tree that stretched across the fire escape, a presence that meant nothing to me during the day, but late at night its newly bloomed glowing white flowers seemed to turn into demonic faces stretched in laughter. cw: suicide ideation
8 min read
Jul
19
sync don't swim

sync don't swim

There’s not enough to drink that will make me forget what’s happening, it’s only when I’m with Odious that I feel calm, because I’m so focused on the unique feel of everything that happens in their presence that I forget to obsess about my own thoughts for a while.
7 min read
Jun
27
Blue Veins

Blue Veins

“Maybe if I hadn’t been high all the time, I would have realized sooner what was going on and stopped him from hurting Mica and those other women,” they said, to which I could only nod and look away.
5 min read