black hole

Oct
22
Deeper

Deeper

I could almost be lulled into believing nothing had changed, but the formidable reality of Heir Max 98 hung between us, a dark shape that was blurred around the edges like a smudge or a distortion in the fabric of space and time.
4 min read
Oct
09
present tense (synopsis)

present tense (synopsis)

The parts of our being that are pre and post language—they’ve been activated and lit-up, even if the rest of our so-called conscious minds can’t grasp it. It’s like an opening in your body that lets in extra air, getting you a little high and freaked out from the oxygen.
11 min read
Sep
07
ttys

ttys

I left BK the day before Ida. I'm heading west with an old acquaintance who is vaccinated but far from well…
6 min read
Aug
11
benny & da hex

benny & da hex

Hi, it's Odious. This is how i got the (ghost) band together
7 min read
Jul
19
sync don't swim

sync don't swim

There’s not enough to drink that will make me forget what’s happening, it’s only when I’m with Odious that I feel calm, because I’m so focused on the unique feel of everything that happens in their presence that I forget to obsess about my own thoughts for a while.
7 min read
Jul
11
DOOM

DOOM

At the end of 2020 Odious and I were in a holding pattern. Unusual, and possibly extraordinary things had happened, but there was no way to know what, if anything, any of it meant...
8 min read
Jul
06
Nosferatu in Venice

Nosferatu in Venice

I saved the file and went for a walk, as this often helps stave off the anxious feels whenever they start bubbling up. This time, however, going out only made it worse, edging me towards straight up panic attack territory for the first time in a while.
6 min read
Jun
21
Rip Van Winkle

Rip Van Winkle

It was an ambivalent energy that was fucking with me—a darkness that didn’t fit into language. It’s that which was there before and that which will be there after we're finished with words.
8 min read
Jun
13
the jar

the jar

Was the jar’s contents the work of a demon--the same demon of the night who infected our sleep with terror filled visions?
7 min read
May
30
W.I.P.

W.I.P.

“It’s wild, SWIM, it’s too specific to be chance. Someone or something is trying to get messages to me.”
5 min read